| | Usually I don't even realize that I've slipped until one day I'm in church and look up and realize that I haven't cracked open my Bible since the previous Sunday. Then there is guilt, but excuses are made. I've been busy, I'm tired, and hey -- this week without hasn't been too bad, right?
It's supposed to be daily bread I know, but I just finished that last study and I'm not sure what I should do next. I'll think about it, maybe I'll get a new book to help guide my study this time. And so another week rolls by. But I've not turned into a raving heathen from two weeks out of the Word.
I'm trying to find a good book to help me study, that's all. Plus there's all this stress at work, I really don't need pressure at home too, okay? All of these books are so *boring* -- why can't anyone write in plain English, in a way that doesn't make me want to fall asleep? And ugh, all this trash that's out from modern authors, it makes me ashamed for them. I'll deal with this later, I can't handle it right now.
Sunday again. When did I last meditate on my own? Or pray? Or read? Daily bread -- right. Shouldn't my life be a mess right now since I've neglected Him so badly if I really love and need God the way I say I do? Shouldn't I be more distraught? My life is fine! Except that I'm stressed out all the time, and cranky. My patience is razor thin, and I complain all the time. I've been overindulgent and undisciplined. I've not met any of the goals I've set for myself in a month. I'm distracted, frazzled, and generally frustrated. Alright. Maybe not so fine.
How can a person be so out of tune with themselves? Continue in something for so long completely blind to the downward slide?
|
| | Posted 8/15/2007 11:34 PM - 56 Views - 8 eProps - 4 comments
- recommend
    - recs0
- share
- email
 - sent0
Give eProps or Post a Comment |