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Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Some thoughts on private worship

 Usually I don't even realize that I've slipped until one day I'm in church and look up and realize that I haven't cracked open my Bible since the previous Sunday. Then there is guilt, but excuses are made. I've been busy, I'm tired, and hey -- this week without hasn't been too bad, right?

It's supposed to be daily bread I know, but I just finished that last study and I'm not sure what I should do next. I'll think about it, maybe I'll get a new book to help guide my study this time. And so another week rolls by. But I've not turned into a raving heathen from two weeks out of the Word.

I'm trying to find a good book to help me study, that's all. Plus there's all this stress at work, I really don't need pressure at home too, okay?  All of these books are so *boring* -- why can't anyone write in plain English, in a way that doesn't make me want to fall asleep? And ugh, all this trash that's out from modern authors, it makes me ashamed for them. I'll deal with this later, I can't handle it right now.

Sunday again. When did I last meditate on my own? Or pray? Or read? Daily bread -- right. Shouldn't my life be a mess right now since I've neglected Him so badly if I really love and need God the way I say I do? Shouldn't I be more distraught? My life is fine! Except that I'm stressed out all the time, and cranky. My patience is razor thin, and I complain all the time. I've been overindulgent and undisciplined. I've not met any of the goals I've set for myself in a month. I'm distracted, frazzled, and generally frustrated. Alright. Maybe not so fine.

How can a person be so out of tune with themselves? Continue in something for so long completely blind to the downward slide?

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For the stress, let me recommend giving yourself an hour.  Find an hour anywhere in your week and enjoy , for me, it's proping my feet up and drinking a cup of coffee (just regular old coffee, black).  If you can't find an hour, set the alarm an hour early.  Make yourself a nice full breakfast and enjoy, or better yet, go to a small diner at around 6 am, and have them make you a big breakfast.  Works every time.

As for Him.  I don't really think he subjects Himself to the ravages of time.  Nor do I think he's a stickler for formality.  Say a small prayer on the drive to work, or on your work break.  If you do feel guilt, sincerely pray for forgivness, He's a pretty laid back kinda dude, works everytime.

Posted 8/16/2007 7:11 AM by Xsailor - reply

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one might surmise, actually, that the more time you spend with God, the more of a mess your life will be, because he that is in the world would rather prefer us to be busy, tired, and okay with our lives neglecting Him. that, at least, is what i'm learning. not that you're not right with God until your life is crappy...

but just think about job. the Biblical character, i mean. God agreed to letting satan have control of the guy's misfortunes because God knew that job would never curse God's name. job complained a lot, and questioned God a lot, but never did he curse God for any of it. and so, God (if perhaps annoyed by all of job's complaining) blessed job all the more for staying true to Him in the midst of all the hardship.

point being... people often assume that when things are going wrong in their lives, it's because they're not right with God. so when things are going well, God must be blessing them, right? well, yeah, very possibly. but God is in all things and in all times, not just the good.

um... i think i got off the actual topic at hand. all this to say i guess, i'm pretty much where you are, it sounds. i have the time... but i'm either too tired or i should be doing something else. distracted, frazzled, frustrated... yeah. but the good news is that God said "if my people who call on my name will humble themselves and pray... then i will hear from heaven." that's a paraphrase, but it's such a comfort. it takes humility. saying to yourself, "yeah, i'm frustrated with my own shortcomings, but doggonit, i miss my Maker."

incidentally... i find that i realize just how much i miss Him the most whenever i return to Him. and He's always there waiting, never with folded arms or a tapping foot, but with open arms and a bounce in His step. so wonderful.

wow, that was a monster of a comment. hehh. well, i hope some of it was helpful.
Posted 8/16/2007 9:46 AM by FalknerIsFalkner - reply

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"How can a person be so out of tune with themselves? Continue in something for so long completely blind to the downward slide?"

Welcome to the human race!

 (not that I thought you weren't or anything!)

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This is really encouraging. :)
Posted 8/17/2007 2:43 AM by roxfourjesus - reply


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